.....and on, and on, and on, and......

I can't believe it's been a month since my last entry, where did the time go.  It's been a weird month in terms of this process as, I suppose, lots has happened but nothing really major.

The biggest thing has been the solo interviews that we both had last week.  It made us both quite nervous beforehand as neither of us really had much of a clue as to what we were going to face. We've always seen the social worker together so this was totally new territory.

In fairness it wasn't actually as bad as I thought it was going to be.  Our social worker was probably more embarrassed asking the questions then I was answering them.  It was a very personal session focused on our relationship and 'intimacy', normally you'd only really discuss those kind of things with really close friends or after a good few drinks.

We've been doing lots of work on our finances of late and we were a little worried that our panel date might get delayed as our social worker had mentioned that our finances were of a slight concern to her.  Anyway, at my solo visit our social worker told me that the panel had to bring the date forward a week.  I'm hoping that as she mentioned this and the new date is now in our diary we won't be put back to a later panel date.

We managed to get together with the local couple (I wrote them about previously) and their little boy last weekend.  It was lovely to see their little family unit and although the little one was a bit shy around us you could see just how happy and content he was and how proud of him his Dad and Daddy were.  It was great chatting with them and once again, they gave me hope for our future.  I really hope we become great friends and our children get to play together.

Since our social worker mentioned the little girl my mind has been playing all sorts of tricks on me.  I used to dream of us and our son but now I never knew who I'm going to dream about when I drift off to sleep but I do know that little one gets here we're going to love them no matter who they are.

Not that I'm counting but it's 14 weeks until approval panel.  There is still a bit of work to do but I know our social worker is on our side and despite her heavy workload I know she's doing her best to make sure we get there on time but in the meantime, it's more visits and more homework!  Whoop whoop!!!!!!